Anxiety and the Nature of Connection
Anxiety takes many forms. What has been interesting to me lately is how it shows up in our thought patterns and the nuanced way this happens. Curious about patterns, it is fascinating to notice when a random thought comes into my head. Especially when that thought comes from fear. At that particular moment, what am I scared of?
One of the gifts of being a somatic psychotherapist is witnessing others in their process. I notice what is said and the space in between the words. The shape of a mouth, the movement of eyes, the length of the breath, the hands, placement of feet, turning of the head, and then I am curious to see what happens next.
Especially around transitions. I think most transitions are challenging and we just don’t notice it. It seems kind of obvious as I write these words, but I believe as adults our minds often get busy when we anticipate some kind of transition that may threaten connection.
Fear has many forms and one of them is the endless activity of the thinking mind. I wonder what it would be like to pause and feel and breath into the connection before we separate. Taking it slow, putting the thinking mind aside, taking time to feel. I wonder what would happen if we did this and then listened for a sentence that aligned with this feeling? What would that sentence sound like? What would that sentence sound like if we heard it from the voice of our heart?
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